i'm not gonna lie

i'm struggling.

it's amazing how when things are so good. satan takes a wack at what you never expected to be a problem. let's see. my companionship is amazing. the work is amazing. 2 baptisms next month. one one the verge. a huge indian taco party last night that brought in 25 people, several of which haven't been to church in weeks, 2 muslim guys, a homeless girl, 3 ukranians, a rowandan, a romaninan, a tiwaness, a togoles, cape verdians, good quality fun. the french is doing ok. i've even been complimented a few times. my studies are more profound. i feel a better understanding of the scriptures,

what's left for satan to attack? well i'm not going to tell you how horribly flawed i am but continuous reminders of my weakness from those that should be or well i expected to be positive and motivating have become satans new strategy in operation counterattack mormon missionary shai 2006. and as many tears that have been brought forth from this new twist of events lead me to believe he is gaining ground. a scary yet irrevocalbe feeling.

however with my trusty can of syro (flavored concentrated suger that is poored into everything-like grenadine but in so many more flavors-peach, watermellen, strawberry, blackberry, almond, ooooohhhh good) I can concker uh conquer, umm...maybe concer welll...overcome any devilish plan to bring me down.

today i ate lots of gloriously hand made asian food and tonight i will pass the evening with the president's wife who decided she wanted to bring a cot on a 5 hour drive to pass the evening with us. why? well to have a companionship study. tobad that it is falling on our only day off. yippie! maybe we can braid each other's hair and talk about boys. but i have the feeling that i'm going to end up sorry for this little experience. they are looking for trainers and i think president has sent his wife out on a little covert operation.

i'll keep you posted. transfers are next week. it's very possible i'm gettingtheboot. things are too good here for me to stay....

such is the life

love anyway,
shai