the thing is...

well what is the thing.

why does the ocean rumble? why do fish smell so bad? why do i feel so itchy after i run? why do basil plants repel mosquitos?

why on earth would God take the time to answer the prayers of His children?

Honestly this week was hard. it so freeking hot. i'm still wearing nylons. all of the people that we are teaching either got in car crashes or are hiding from their husbands. and our numbers aren't that great and i'm not feeling that spiritual. and i am worring about school. and going home. and life and fears and all the things that i can't control right now.

and then thursday i decided to pray. and i prayed for a good 10 minutes. pleading with the lord to send me a feeling or an answer to let me know he is listening that he loves me and that i'm not a huge dissapointment to him. that my work is enough and that all of this trials are not a form of punishment calling me to repentance. and then i started to study. and i studied and studied and nothing came. nothing. and i felt a little dissapointed becuaes the rest of the day would be occupied with work and i wouldn't have another moment to listen quietly to the Lord. but well such is the timing of the Lord.

as soeur kim and i started to prepare for the day with our studies as a companionship we recieved a message. and it was from our dear president. and it was just a message telling us how much he loved us and how much he knows the lord is plesaed with all that we are doing and how hard we are working. and i started to cry.

and then we got a message from our zone leaders telling how the Lord knows its hot, the lord knows that life isn't easy but that he's listening and is mindful of our sacrifices. and i started to sob.

honestly. i'm so greatful for inspired leaders. i'm so greatful that the Lord loved me enough to send me an answer through my dear president. and then top it off...

a rescent convert has been having some problems with her husband. her husband is completly against the church and is trying to stop her from coming. she refused to be caged by her husbands lack of understanding but that creates an unsteady home life. soeur kim and i decided to pray in every prayer that the heart of her husband would be softened. and sunday, there she was at church. and she told us the story that her husband asked her that morning if she was going to church. he even gave her a ride. What? !!! i mean how much better can it get.

it's just that the thing is the lord loves his childeren. and well he answered my prayers this week. and he listens to me when i talk to him and he cries with me when i'm hurting and he rejoices with me when i'm happy and he smiles with me when i overcome my weakness. He's so real.

it's just so good.

love
shai