what will it be like to wake up at 930 am? what will it be like to eat lucky charms and penut butter and sonic...hmmm...sonic.

what will it be like to set my own schedule.
go on a date.

dance.

so many things. who will i end up with. will the 7 month bet actually come true? (and elder made me a bet that i will be engaged 7 months from last zone conference meaning end of may.)

so many thoughts. so many dreams. so many new and different feelings.

life is ok. things are on the up. i getting scared to say good bye. my comp is growing in confidance. my city is growing in progress. i want to leave it on the up side.

i'm getting ready.

not many profound things to expond this week just getting ready. keeping my eyes open for miracles. and my heart open for insperation. i've started a little contest with my companion. we are doing an english fast. no english until i see my parents. until the last day of the mission. and it's actually going really well. soeur haake and i are learning a great lesson.
let me share.

haake hates french. she hates it. therefore it's hard for her. everyone thinks she's speaking english. it's really frustrating that she can't explain herself. teach or anything. so we decided to do this english fast. after one day she had had enough and the tears to show for it. and i asked her point blank if she loved the language. and she said no. and i challenged her to learn to love it. pray to love it. find the things that make it loveable. there is so much to love, you just have to change the way you look at it.

interesting.

i didn't think anything else about it. but little did i know our district leader had invited her to do an experiment for the week on Romands 5: 3-5 perserver though trials. and she shared her testimony at district meeting of how much this little learning experience changed things for her.

and as we talked aobut it after i realized that that's how i feel aobut contacting people on the street. i hate it. i've hated it my whole mission. i've done it and had some sucess but i've never loved it. and so we've decied to pray to love it. the lord gave us an entire efternoon to tlak to people. we fixed the goal to really share our heart with everyone. to talk about the happines that we feel with the testimony of jesus christ. and lo and behold more sucess in an afternoon than the entire past two weeks. a rendez vous an address and 3 phone numbers. and that's saying a lot. it was really really cool.

thanks god.

like elder euchdorf said last conference it's really the attitude, the desire that makes a huge difference. hopefully i can maintain this desire, this attitude for 21 more days. and arrive at the end as the missionariy the lord sent me to be.

have a great week.

i love you,shai