Righteous Desires
Wow is it already time to write again?
I used to think all week about how to put into words the thoughts of my heart for the millions of people that take time out of their day to read my blog. Now I barely have time to think about what is going to happen in the next five minutes. It's like a magical hand called time is rapidly grabbing at my reality and I have no control where it leads me. Like a river I am silently following the path that nature guides to me. Donating a heart to the Maker of the Universe is crazy for the natural control freek. I have an agenda but I am not governed by it. I have a planner but it is not my manager.
My week has felt like that. Moving along an unknown path that is only unknown to me. And I love it. I love the surprises that come around. Walking home for the day and getting a fat drop of bird poop on my head. Love it. The halloween package with Jello jigglers. Good stuff. The unexpected lesson with a friend of a friend that lived off every word of broke french that haphazardly tumbled from my mouth. If my eyes are open I see the people that the Lord puts in my path. If my eyes are open, I see. But I'm just a baby river.
Oct 11- Our un day of preperation. We donated our "day off" and decided to not take a break. We went out with the elders for a few hours and ended up finding so many amazing people to talk to. The lord took our 'sacrifice' and magnified it. He often does that. I ate a great kabob today. why don't we have kabob shops in the states!
Oct 12- Conference du Zone! Getting a huge sack of mail. And a little package with a little pearl from Tahiti. And i'm pretty sure it's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Seeing my MTC companions and just feeling so good. Like really really deep down good. Dalila a woman that just showed up at the church on Wednesday night. She said that it was like a magnetic force was leading her to the building. And she saw the gate open and came in. She was baptised 4 years ago and has never been back. The best part is that the gate is never open. I didn't open it. The other missionaries didn't open it. But it was open and Dalila came in.
Oct 13- Being in a huge ghetto looking for someone and wondering if this someone even knows where she is. it is so easy to get lost in such an empty place. and then through the crack of two buildings there is a random little garden with growing tomatoes. And I realized there is no empty place. There is no empty heart. It just takes a little time to make things grow in some places. it takes a little more love.
Oct 14- Who is this God of miracles? We taught a girl who was moving to portugal the next day. she was so open and had such a desire to know. Spending Friday night in the church with a girl named Meherio (mermaid in tahitian). I could look at her and just feel how much the Lord loved her. I could hardly stand my body because I all the love couldn't fit inside it.
Oct 15-two babies meeting each other for the first time. Have you ever watched it? there is something magical that happens. They can't talk with our words but it's like their two sprits are communicating. I saw it on the bus today. I think love will be like that. President Merrel told me he loved me today and he appreciated who I am. Why don't I apprecitate who i am?
Oct 16- Why do people wast fingers on expressions of hate? I saw an interchange between two drivers and it made me so sad. why? What a wasted use of a beautiful day, a beautifully created hand spreading a message of ignorance. I just wanted to give them a hug. Being told be a random lady at church that I am different becuase there is something behind my eyes. What is it? I stared in the mirror looking but can't decide what she sees? A random man purred at me today. How do you translate a purr into english?
Oct 17-I asked a lady in the park how her day was and she asked me why? Why what? What is wrong with the world? Why does "hi how are you" have an alterier motive? My answer it is a beautiful day in the park thats why. and she looked at me strange. I found her 7 minutes later lost in the park looking for a German monument. so I showed her where it was and she looked at me like I was sent directly from heaven. I think I was. She just said "Dieu vous protege." May God protect you. I think He will.
Oct 18- I said hi to an old man today and he asked if he knew me. I said nope, not at all but bonjour just the same. He shook my hand and told me thank you.
that's it. random thoughts. Incomplete sentences. Thoughts from my heart. say hi to strangers on the street. Smile a lot. Don't look down when you walk. Forget your embrella and enjoy the rain. Wear scarfs with out a jacket. Treasure every fallen leaf. Open your eyes, and you will see.
I love you -
shai
I used to think all week about how to put into words the thoughts of my heart for the millions of people that take time out of their day to read my blog. Now I barely have time to think about what is going to happen in the next five minutes. It's like a magical hand called time is rapidly grabbing at my reality and I have no control where it leads me. Like a river I am silently following the path that nature guides to me. Donating a heart to the Maker of the Universe is crazy for the natural control freek. I have an agenda but I am not governed by it. I have a planner but it is not my manager.
My week has felt like that. Moving along an unknown path that is only unknown to me. And I love it. I love the surprises that come around. Walking home for the day and getting a fat drop of bird poop on my head. Love it. The halloween package with Jello jigglers. Good stuff. The unexpected lesson with a friend of a friend that lived off every word of broke french that haphazardly tumbled from my mouth. If my eyes are open I see the people that the Lord puts in my path. If my eyes are open, I see. But I'm just a baby river.
Oct 11- Our un day of preperation. We donated our "day off" and decided to not take a break. We went out with the elders for a few hours and ended up finding so many amazing people to talk to. The lord took our 'sacrifice' and magnified it. He often does that. I ate a great kabob today. why don't we have kabob shops in the states!
Oct 12- Conference du Zone! Getting a huge sack of mail. And a little package with a little pearl from Tahiti. And i'm pretty sure it's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Seeing my MTC companions and just feeling so good. Like really really deep down good. Dalila a woman that just showed up at the church on Wednesday night. She said that it was like a magnetic force was leading her to the building. And she saw the gate open and came in. She was baptised 4 years ago and has never been back. The best part is that the gate is never open. I didn't open it. The other missionaries didn't open it. But it was open and Dalila came in.
Oct 13- Being in a huge ghetto looking for someone and wondering if this someone even knows where she is. it is so easy to get lost in such an empty place. and then through the crack of two buildings there is a random little garden with growing tomatoes. And I realized there is no empty place. There is no empty heart. It just takes a little time to make things grow in some places. it takes a little more love.
Oct 14- Who is this God of miracles? We taught a girl who was moving to portugal the next day. she was so open and had such a desire to know. Spending Friday night in the church with a girl named Meherio (mermaid in tahitian). I could look at her and just feel how much the Lord loved her. I could hardly stand my body because I all the love couldn't fit inside it.
Oct 15-two babies meeting each other for the first time. Have you ever watched it? there is something magical that happens. They can't talk with our words but it's like their two sprits are communicating. I saw it on the bus today. I think love will be like that. President Merrel told me he loved me today and he appreciated who I am. Why don't I apprecitate who i am?
Oct 16- Why do people wast fingers on expressions of hate? I saw an interchange between two drivers and it made me so sad. why? What a wasted use of a beautiful day, a beautifully created hand spreading a message of ignorance. I just wanted to give them a hug. Being told be a random lady at church that I am different becuase there is something behind my eyes. What is it? I stared in the mirror looking but can't decide what she sees? A random man purred at me today. How do you translate a purr into english?
Oct 17-I asked a lady in the park how her day was and she asked me why? Why what? What is wrong with the world? Why does "hi how are you" have an alterier motive? My answer it is a beautiful day in the park thats why. and she looked at me strange. I found her 7 minutes later lost in the park looking for a German monument. so I showed her where it was and she looked at me like I was sent directly from heaven. I think I was. She just said "Dieu vous protege." May God protect you. I think He will.
Oct 18- I said hi to an old man today and he asked if he knew me. I said nope, not at all but bonjour just the same. He shook my hand and told me thank you.
that's it. random thoughts. Incomplete sentences. Thoughts from my heart. say hi to strangers on the street. Smile a lot. Don't look down when you walk. Forget your embrella and enjoy the rain. Wear scarfs with out a jacket. Treasure every fallen leaf. Open your eyes, and you will see.
I love you -
shai
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